Horror Films are One of my Favorite Things

We are talking about FAVORITES today.

I don't know where my love for horror films comes from.  Ever since I can remember I read the genre and watched it.  You might already know I've already written one myself.  It's more of a Zombie/ Love /High School story.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS to do is watch horror movies at home any night of the week.  I find them very entertaining.  As we speak I'm watching the cult film, Gremlins.  It has everything one needs for a "kick ass scary movie".  The hero is this handsome brown haired, fair skinned male.  He is of course relatable.  You want him to win.  There is love interest.  A brunette, fair skin, angelic type female.

The script is amazing.  I mean of course it is a scary movie, so half the movie is action, blood, gore, monsters.  In this case the monsters are called, Gremlins.  They are cute and cuddly.  Until you -: feed them after midnight; shine bright lights on them that can kill them; whatever you do don't get them wet.  SPOILER: If you do, they multiply and turn into Creepy Party Gremlins.  They'll party at a local bar, kill the occasional neighbor and destroy the neighborhood.

Anyway,  I've told you about my favorite thing to do. Now it's your turn to share.
What is your favorite thing to do?  Or what is your favorite movie genre?

Now ... go watch a scary movie.

no throw-up please!

I enjoy a good gory movie.  One of my favorites is the EVIL DEAD series.  I was a huge fan of Stephen King.  I even wrote a campy horror movie myself.

Throw-Up in Movies, this I can' stand.

 I don't understand why I need to see someone throw up on film.  I mean please - can't the director ask the DP to cut or pan right or left or,  perhaps cut to a long-shot of the back of the neck without showing the actual throw up.  It makes me sick.  I have to look away, I really do look away.  It makes  me want to go to the bathroom to upchuck, talk on the big white phone.

So please director or wannabe director, or producer, don't show me throw- up shots.  Make it creative. Cut up some arms and legs, or heads. Slice some body parts, but whatever you do, no throw-up please.

I'm like one of those Disney Princesses

If I had to describe myself to you, I would say I'm like one of those Disney Princesses.
Confortable in my own skin, alive in my own world, friendly with animals.  I love to meet people. I believe in people. And I'm a little bit naive.


I take people for who they say they are.  I believe what they say.  I don't have any reason to believe someone would want to lie to me.  Or do me harm.  Or not pay me equally like others.  I'm very open and accepting of people.  That is how I see Disney Princesses, that is how I see myself.

It's difficult being that Disney Princess sometimes, because I find no one else lives in this world but me.   I am who I say I am.  You can see happy in my face and you can see sadness in my face.

I sometimes come off blunt and awkward because I'm direct.  Sometimes I lack common sense and sometimes I'm bit clumsy.  But I like this about me.  It makes me honest.   I think it's part of my charm.

So when I find someone is not who they say they are, I can't believe it.  I give them time to prove themselves wrong. And I block all the clues that tell me otherwise.  When I wake up from that deep slumber, it's very disappointing.  When I find someone doesn't mean what they say, it breaks my heart.  And I cry and try to make sense of it all.

I wish I weren't this naive princess.  Sometimes I wish I were tough and bitchy.  That way people will stop treating me like they can take advantage of me.

But then I realize that I can't fight who I am.  I love who I am.  I am real.  This realization makes me strong and encourages me to push through all that difficult fight and make a spot for me.  And for other Princesses like me.  

That Magic Moment

I often feel I live in a movie expecting a movie ending.

I am the hero of the story fighting my way through obstacles and waiting for that pinnacle or that big dramatic winning moment.  Perhaps it's a romantic comedy and that climax is finding the relationship I've always wanted.  Perhaps it's the job of a lifetime and at the end my prince is waiting for me with

a bouquet of roses after I've conquered the hardest almost impossible feat. And at the end of it all I see him.  I smile and run to his arms. I worried he had left me since I had a reputation of being a hard to get girl.  He is the only one that gets me.   He finds he can't live without me. We embrace and kiss while soft romantic music plays in the background. The camera spins around 360 style capturing that last moment.

It's not over yet. The rain starts to fall softly on our faces.  Our wet clothes makes us look sexier than we were originally and we run into my awesome apartment where with one last kiss we close the door, giving the illusion we closed the door to make passionate love.

When I come down to earth, I realize life is not like that.  There is no pinnacle, no happy ending, no living happily ever after.  Everyday it's a mix of all of these factors.  The hero wins, the hero gets lost, the hero conquers her own doubts, the hero wins, the hero loses.  The hero just lives.

There is no ONE magic moment to wait for.

Sorry to bust your bubble.

Sometimes You Just Have to Go Through It!

I’m sitting home today, playing hooky from work.  Sometimes it feels nice to do nothing than lay around on my couch.  My head spins and spins asking myself if I should call someone, to do something, just to ask if there is something to do. Maybe I should call my neighbor and go to the pool. But all the hours of thinking if I should, I don’t. 

I turn on the telly and I binge watch all the movies that seem somewhat interesting.  I entertain the thought perhaps I’ve become a recluse, instead of the social butterfly I was not too long ago.  (And that is why I left my previous day-job because everyone required me to be outgoing and I didn’t want to.  It was too much for me. )

I chose another path, I chose to go to school and leave all the stability behind.  Some of my friends are now making $6500 and up income a month.  I’m making a small percentage in comparison.  It does sometimes bother me and it makes me wonder. 

I spent yesterday sleeping all day long and binge watched. Thank you Netflix. One day soon we will work on a project together. 

Today I’m basically doing the same.   I did manage to go out and meet a friend for lunch.  I bought my favorite desert.  Afterwards I thought about calling another friend, but I didn’t.  I drove straight home.  I used the "heat" as an excuse.  "It’s too hot to be out there driving in this heat," I excused myself. 

What is really keeping me in? Am I afraid to put myself out there, to take a chance in friendships? Maybe I’m afraid of getting hurt.

Acting is about that, putting yourself out there, every single day.  Stepping over, around, jumping, rolling however you need to get to the other side.  Being afraid to fail and still continue regardless of that fear.  You see a light at the end of the tunnel, just barely barely dimmed.  But the Actor continues, tenacity is what it requires daily. Finally, not really but probably, Dicipline.  

And sometimes a little pampering and laying around the house is just what one needs.  Perhaps I don’t need to question what I’m going through or poop on it.  I just have to go though it. Forgive myself for needing to rest.  Enjoy it, replenish my energy so I can do it again.  ACT. , jump over my fears.  

Or didn't you know I was an actress!

What is the meaning of Life?

While everyone is partying I'm probably home doing the opposite.

I haven't been a social butterfly lately.  I have been taking the last few days to just rest, stay at home, not drive, finish my website.  Which I did by the way, finish my new website. Check it out www.jccadena.com.  Sign up for my blog.


I see pictures on instagram of everyone partying and having fun. And then I look at myself, I'm home cooking and
watching movies, and spending time with my dog. I'm focusing on myself.  Thinking about what I've done, what
I'm doing,  and what I am going to do.

During my cooking interim my phone hasn't rung very much for sure.

I can count the people that called me on one hand.
I ponder,  if this person I've become - the loner - is pushing me away from making friends, lasting relationships, life.

No, it's not.  I'm ok if I only have a few people in my life that truly care about me.  And I care back about them just as much.  So I am ok on that point.

What I'm not ok with is, if the loner in me, this recluse, impedes my experiencing life.  Whatever "life" is.

Now you're asking yourself, "hey JC, you promised to have the answer to that question "What is the meaning of life?  To that I answer: "I must look inside myself to find the answer."

After many years of thought I feel I found the meaning of life.  I found, life is just that, the moments you enjoy.  Stop and focus on where you are right now and appreciate the moment and every moment that follows.  Life is a part of my loneliness, and my sometimes being a recluse.

I am focusing on appreciating all my feelings,  loving them and cherishing them.

A memory, a moment that is the meaning of Life!

Love & Consequences - A Web

I am always impressed by this next article highlighting actor/director/writer, Odell Ruffin.  I met Odell at the Robey Theater.  We were both acting in La Lotteria. Odell asked me to read for a stage reading he had written, Faces, a breast cancer series.  The next project was titled IN-DICT-MENT a Mike Brown Project.  If you haven't been spotting it by now, Odell Ruffin is an advocate.  His belief is education through entertainment.

Ruffin has yet again written a wonderful new project, shooting in September, titled Love & Consequence.  The web series is based on real life experiences.  "The past affects the future.  My experiences throughout my life, are the scars, the foundation where Love & Consequences is built on, " Ruffin smiles.  The series takes these characters through their own challenges: violence, addiction, loss. "People will be able to engage in conversation after an episode," Ruffin states.

The adventure on this project has been capturing both sides of love and trying successfully to put that in a format. As always Ruffin feels casting is key.  For Love and Consequences, finding lead characters was not done traditionally. Casting consisted of an audition and a sit down interview that would finally decide the role.

Ruffin is acting in the film, which will be his next adventure.  Having the vision for the project and able to be on camera will be a discovery.

All the elements are there for an attention getting series.  Congratulations Odell Ruffin, can't wait to see the final product.   Which by the way will be featuring me, JC Cadena,  on Episode 1.  The series consist of 5 episodes, 5 to 6 minutes each, slated for January 2016.

 To find out more about Odell Ruffin and Ruffin Entertainment go to:

www.ruffinentertainment.com

@ruffinent

www.facebook.com/ruffinentertainment.com

APRON : What is it for?

Well Guess what?  I've discovered what an apron is for.  It's to put
on before you cook or wash the dishes. That way your clothes don't get stained or wet.

I just discovered it because I just started wearing one.  It is the one I used for my role
in Clase A Medias.

So now that I have some time, I have started cooking breakfast and lunch and dinner.  And I've even taken some left overs with me.  Isn't that great.

The discovery was made one evening as I began to prepare dinner.  I had to wash the pile of dishes mounted on the sink.  I put on my apron, 'cause I said I was going to use this, since I have like 5 aprons I've never used, except in plays.  LOL.  I began to wash the dishes and when I was done I realized that my clothes weren't wet, like they usually get.  The apron had blocked my clothes and my clothes were dry as the summer in the desert.

So anyway, that is what an apron is for, boys and girls.  It is for protecting you from stains or water.

Now you can rest easy.  I've answered the question that keeps you up at night. APRON: What is it for?