I haven't been a social butterfly lately. I have been taking the last few days to just rest, stay at home, not drive, finish my website. Which I did by the way, finish my new website. Check it out www.jccadena.com. Sign up for my blog.
I see pictures on instagram of everyone partying and having fun. And then I look at myself, I'm home cooking and
watching movies, and spending time with my dog. I'm focusing on myself. Thinking about what I've done, what
I'm doing, and what I am going to do.
During my cooking interim my phone hasn't rung very much for sure.
I can count the people that called me on one hand.
I ponder, if this person I've become - the loner - is pushing me away from making friends, lasting relationships, life.
No, it's not. I'm ok if I only have a few people in my life that truly care about me. And I care back about them just as much. So I am ok on that point.
What I'm not ok with is, if the loner in me, this recluse, impedes my experiencing life. Whatever "life" is.
Now you're asking yourself, "hey JC, you promised to have the answer to that question "What is the meaning of life? To that I answer: "I must look inside myself to find the answer."
After many years of thought I feel I found the meaning of life. I found, life is just that, the moments you enjoy. Stop and focus on where you are right now and appreciate the moment and every moment that follows. Life is a part of my loneliness, and my sometimes being a recluse.
I am focusing on appreciating all my feelings, loving them and cherishing them.
A memory, a moment that is the meaning of Life!
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