APRON : What is it for?

Well Guess what?  I've discovered what an apron is for.  It's to put
on before you cook or wash the dishes. That way your clothes don't get stained or wet.

I just discovered it because I just started wearing one.  It is the one I used for my role
in Clase A Medias.

So now that I have some time, I have started cooking breakfast and lunch and dinner.  And I've even taken some left overs with me.  Isn't that great.

The discovery was made one evening as I began to prepare dinner.  I had to wash the pile of dishes mounted on the sink.  I put on my apron, 'cause I said I was going to use this, since I have like 5 aprons I've never used, except in plays.  LOL.  I began to wash the dishes and when I was done I realized that my clothes weren't wet, like they usually get.  The apron had blocked my clothes and my clothes were dry as the summer in the desert.

So anyway, that is what an apron is for, boys and girls.  It is for protecting you from stains or water.

Now you can rest easy.  I've answered the question that keeps you up at night. APRON: What is it for?

A New Business Strategy to Acting, Is it Time?

I have to start to think of a "new strategy" and approach to my business, Acting.
At the beginning of the year it seemed whatever I was doing was working.  I was going out on an average of 3 auditions per week. I was stoked.  But somehow somewhere it changed.

My audition average is now twice a month.

I put the blame on my Agent.  Perhaps, I thought, I should have a conversation with him.

I did.  I followed the rule "the squeaky wheel gets the oil".  I scheduled conference calls and I set up times to meet.  I followed up with emails or text, because it's important to be on his mind so if he needs to recommend someone he will think of me.

To date I haven't seen a change but at least I know I'm on his mind.

But the truth is, as many as my well known actor friends tell me, that this is usually the reality.  Starting actors get their own jobs before Agents are able to do the most for them.

I've been submitting a lot.  Most of the auditions I'm getting have been auditions I've gotten on my
own.

So, what do I do, get a new agent.  Well NO!

I can't blame my agent for everything.   I mean,  I am responsible for my own success.  I haven't booked major roles, so I can't blame them for not investing all their time in me.  But of course I want him to very much.

My goal is to have my agent see me as a priority, where he is booking me for 4 Major Lead Roles a year.

So here is my current plan, submit submit and submit to all casting sites.  Or at least the ones that my budget can afford to pursue right now.  As I've stated this plan is not working and I think its time for a new business strategy.  I will focus mainly on casting directors that cast my type of roles.  I need to meet them - get to know them - and have them get to know me.  I have contacted a photographer for new head shots.  I am going to focus on this approach to see if this works.

Where are YOU with your current situation.  Is it working for you? If it is, great!  Keep doing that.

If it's not working, it's Time to Examine your business strategy. Review it, revise it and apply a new strategy!


Break a Leg, fellow actor mate.

I Have Fallen in Love

This week has been tough on my Acting mojo.

My mother's birthday was August 9th.  She died in 2006 and
I can't get over it.  Every year I remember in some different
way.  Some years tougher than others.  And this year was really
tough for me.

It was a coincidence that I was invited to MC the Ecuadorian
Festival & Parade held at the historic Olvera street in
downtown LA (Placita Olvera).  The event just happened to fall on August 9th, my mother's birthday.   Here to for I had met some wonderful people from my country, my people.  Ecuador is where I was born!  In becoming a part of the Ecuadorian festival I was surrounded by love.  I met many new and supportive friends and we shared typical  Ecuadorian  music, dancing and food.  Everything I grew up with, which I miss so much.

I danced that day and celebrated everything that my mother
taught me and loved.

But, just as I am in turmoil, so are my people.  We are divided.  Our country is divided between social class and race.


That makes me sad.  Too much politics for such a small country.

I hope that in the future my country will come together by the
culture and agree on policy that benefits the country and not individual
groups.  We have so many wonderful resources, including me (*wink).

But regardless I have fallen in love.  I have fallen in love with my people
and our culture.  And about our history.  As an actress I am going to help
build and spread culture and diversity.

Do You Have a Support System?

What a summer thus far.  I feel I have been driving non-stop all over this 503 mi2 city, and way past its limits on either side.  

No matter how much time I have I always feel I'm hustling, still waiting for fruition.  I seem to have one switch and it's always "ON".

As I'm driving down the 101 North.  I'm on my bluetooth with a friend while tears are running down my face due to the pressure and stress of this Actor Land.   While we are talking  all I can think of is,  "how wonderful and beautiful these tears stream down my soft face. Can I replicate this moment, how can I use it on my next dramatic piece?"  (That is how I know I'm an actress!!!!!)   

The HEAT, figuratively and factually, has been waring on me and my car to say the least.  

The only way to maintain active and sane in LA one must have friends to turn to.  I have several confidants in case one is busy and I must share.  Find those people, life is not meant to be experienced alone.  At least not all the time.  

Do you have a support system? Why Not?  If you don't. Get one right away. 

Namiste. 

I welcome comments or shares.  

Second Guessing Yourself

I had an audition Saturday.  I had just heard about it the day before.  I saw the dialogue
which I had thought was only going to be 2 lines.  But I get there and I find out that surprisingly I'm auditioning for the lead character.  The Casting Director (CD) announces how happy he is we are all there because Jazz is the lead character and they have not found her yet.

The lead character - they haven't found her yet? And I haven't studied those lines.  That felt like pressure.  All of a sudden I looked around the room saw all the girls and they
were very pretty, skinny, tall, beautiful.  And among these girls I began to think, what the hell am I doing here? And I started to second guess myself.

I got soooo nervous. Luckily I had enough time to go twice to the bathroom.  I didn't even need to go,
I was just trying to get it together.  I was hopping I wouldn't embarrass the poor casting director who brought me in. OMG.  I was freaking out.

Ok fine.  I may not look like the rest of the girls.  But I am pretty,  I am unique and I have a killer attitude.

I learned my lines.  I walked in and I had fun.  I was totally there.
I even ended the scene just how I wanted to end it.  I felt the character and when I left the
casting room, everyone seemed to be energized by my performance.  It really gave me a boost. I was even like "that's right, here I am. It's all about me."  Just to let you know, that is what the character required.

And as soon as I was done I began to second guess myself again.  Did I fuck up?  Maybe, they were just saying nice things to say them since I had waited so long to audition.

A friend of mine noticed I often second guess myself.  I don't have a reason to do that but I do.  I have
to change that kind of thinking.

I can handle lead roles,  I can do them, and have them and  I am right to play leads.

Thank you Subconcious

I've been having this recurring dream.  In it I am unprepared for a performance.  I am nervous cause I know that I am not prepared.  In my dream I'm on the wings waiting to go on.

This dream bothers me.

I mean the worst feeling possible is the feeling of not being prepared.
I'm wondering if this dream talks about my past experiences? Is there somehow I have not been prepared.

In life? At work?

Does my subconscious think I haven't been prepared for past performances?

Or is it an omen for a future project.  Because I really would not want it to be.

Or is it a warning.  I have to be careful and make sure I give time to my scripts.

I think my subconscious is trying to give me practical advice.  I will heed the message.

Messy Me

I am a "project girl".  I get involved in projects.  The more I have the better. I balance my hectic
schedule as perfect as I can.  But something gives.  My room.  Right now my room looks
like a closet.  And I'm not kidding.   There are clothes everywhere.  My Jewelry is everywhere.
There are dirty clothes mixed with clean clothes.  I have no casual clothes left.  All I have

Helpful Robot

are dressy stuff. So I guess that is why I'm always looking my best.  Because I'm too lazy to clean my room.

I watched Chapie the other day.  And one of the supporting characters had built a robot that cleaned his place.  OMG. This is what I need.  A robot that would love to clean my room. Who and where can I call to buy it.  Anyone????







I thought I would be creative and draw my helpful robot.  This is me being an artist, my helpful robot.